Relationship... with him (or her)

I am reading a book right now that is so completely stirring me. I am not even half way through it and I am finding every time I put it down I am consumed in thought about it and what it is saying. The book is a work of fiction that I have heard a lot about- a lot of controversy and a lot of opinion. Now to be honest a lot of what this book is saying freaks me out and is hard to wrap my head around but one thing I am really grasping is the idea that God is a relational being. He or she (you would get this if you have read it) is not waiting for us to have it figured out. He is not waiting for us to “make the right choices” He is just there. Always has been and always will be. He is there in those times of utter darkness and loneliness, in times of joy and success. He is always with us. In relationship with us. But to be honest it upsets me that I don’t and can’t fully grasp this. It infuriates me actually. Those times that I yell out to God “where are you in this?” I really don’t know where I stand in all of this. I just know that I have never really thought of God like this before. To be absolutely honest I have spent my whole Christian life acting like I have it “figured out” but I declare it here… I don’t! I just want to know what it is to be fully and completely in love with God. And to know that He is fully and completely in love with me. The book is “The Shack” it is beautifully written. I highly recommend it! Please keep in mind this is a work of fiction. But I think it will stir in you the idea of truly being in relationship with God and what that looks like and how our lives would be so much different when we are absolutely consumed with the love of Him (or Her) ☺ if you have read this let me know your thoughts. Oh read “Sex God” too another great book on the idea of our relational God.